Being a mom is by far the hardest thing I have ever done! I have ALWAYS wanted to be a mom. It was pretty much my only career goal! And I have worked as a babysitter and nanny since I was 12 years old. I have always loved little kids. But, I was suprised to learn that being a great babysitter doesn't translate into being a great parent. While I could easily handle discipline as a nanny, with my own kids I feel like we are the "before" video segment on Super Nanny some days.
My first born seems to be my biggest challenge. He is adorable and can be the sweetest boy in the world. But, he also has a strong will and can be more challenging than I ever thought one little boy could be! The tantrums, the screaming, the disrespectfulness... it is all so overwhelming!
Lately I just feel like I am at the end of my rope. I am becoming a very grouchy mom because I just don't know what to do anymore! I am tired and I feel like I am just not making progress.
So, last night I decided to just push the "reset button". I found this book
(image from amazon.com)
and I started reading it last night. I have decided that today is a new day and I am going to start again. Even if I haven't been the best mom the past several weeks/months/years, I have today to start again.
I love my kids so much and I want to be the best mom I can. I want to raise them to be nice people that other people actually want to be around! So, pray for me as I "start over"!